Expectant Waiting

How has this year called you?

This year has called me to be patient as I navigate the immense challenges of the various pandemics of COVID, burnout, suicide, and racism. This year has called me to be very intentional and mindful of the silver linings in spite of these challenges. This year has called me to lean into all my discomforts, fears, anxieties. This year has called me to react in innocuous ways to my anger, concerns and frustrations. 

This year has called me to reframe my thoughts, reconsider what is essential, reflect on my purpose, reach into my inner strength, embrace my relationships, maintain my basic rituals, restrain from responding to my negative emotions, rejoice with intentional gratitude and affirmations as I recover and rejuvenate.

This year has called me to wait with expectancy! Expectant Waiting! How do I gather the courage needed for this? 

Expectant waiting 
Anxious unease hope prayer
Calm surprise peace joy 
—Mukta Panda 

I wait with active patience! I wait with my supportive family and community, true friends and kindred relationships. I wait as I resolve to continue to do my duty to the best of my ability. I wait with an intentional invitation to still my body and mind, with self-compassion, kindness and forgiveness. I wait as I allow myself to cry, to scream, to feel the pain, as I pace or lay awake.  I wait actively with undeterred faith, with fervent prayer, a hope and promise of a better tomorrow. In this season of advent, let’s wait expectantly! 

I am reminded of this poem by the English poet, T.S. Eliot:

I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love,
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.

REFLECT: What are you waiting for at this time? How are you waiting?

How is the coronavirus and civil unrest around racism changing the way you think of self-care, community and resilience? As this challenging time unfolds, I am posting a quote on this blog with a reflection prompt. Please join in the conversation here or on Twitter or Instagram with your thoughts or what you are doing for self-care and care of others. My book explores such ideas too: Resilient Threads: Weaving Joy and Meaning into Well-Being.