Our social isolation has granted us a wish I have expressed myself and heard expressed by many: I wish I had more freedom and flexibility to work from home, have more time to do what I want to do. True we have to be on many Zoom meetings, but we are participating in them with the luxury of our surroundings and we do have the luxury of some “extra” time.
However, after a few weeks of this working from home due to the coronavirus, I am certainly experiencing the restlessness with this unknown uncertainty, as I’m sure others are.
As I sit with this feeling, I try to unpack its reasons. Should I not welcome what I wished for, is it because I have no control on the reason for this time and flexibility, is it because it is not on my terms?
Once again I turn to my touchstone, when things are difficult or hard, turn to curiosity!
My walk today was clouded with these thoughts. Perhaps this feeling was because I felt restricted, trapped similar to the caterpillar in its cocoon or chrysalis. Ahh, then immediately the image of the cocoon or chrysalis was followed by the image of the butterfly beautiful and free flying around me.
There is was! Metamorphosis, a transformation of my mindset was needed to endure this time of uncertainty.
Why should I waste all my energy, physical, emotional, mental and spiritual to fight something that I have no control over? What would be possible if I welcomed this uncertain time with anticipation, with kindness, with love and with the unconditional surrender that all I need to do is my duty in the best way possible given the current circumstances.
I felt a sense of gratitude, renewed hope and energy. I was reminded of the vision of the New Normal I envisioned and had written about in the early stages of this social distancing.
I made a mental list of what I could do to be intentional and authentic to welcome this time. I am starting by writing and sharing this.
I plan to make a list of the “things” I wished I had the time for. As I started thinking about these, house cleaning and organizing were on the top and these made me chuckle, I realized that wishing for time was a way for me to justify not doing these tasks which truly speaking I do not like.
The other wish was to catch up on reading for pleasure, now this one I welcomed. So I will starting by cleaning “a little” each day and devote time to read the books I want to, starting with rereading A Hidden Wholeness: The Journey Toward an Undivided Life by Parker J Palmer, one of my favorites.
I am smiling and happy!
The butterfly said to the sun, “They can’t stop talking about my transformation. I can only do it once in my lifetime. If only they knew, they can do it at any time and in countless ways.” —Dodinsky
#REFLECT: How many times have you transformed so far?
How is the coronavirus changing the way you think of self-care, community and resilience? As this challenging time unfolds, I am posting a daily quote on this blog with a reflection prompt. Please join in the conversation here or on Twitter with your thoughts or about what you are doing for self-care and care of others. My new book explores these ideas too: Resilient Threads: Weaving Joy and Meaning into Well-Being.